Dream ~ Act ~ Plan ~ Believe

Perhaps you’ve noticed this blog hasn’t been updated in a couple of weeks. That’s because I been experiencing what I have come to call a spiritual healing crisis. Normally the words “healing crisis” refers to what can happen to the physical body when one goes through a detoxification program. But I have learned that the soul can go through a detoxification process as well, and the symptoms can run deeper than those of a physical healing crisis.

I know I’ve entered a healing crisis when everything seems insurmountable. Yesterday I knocked over a glass that someone had left on a table in the living room and it’s contents spilled all over the carpet. I just sat down and cried. I cried because the act of cleaning it up just seemed simply so overwhelming.

It’s also times like this that I begin to yell at the kids and I lose patience with everything and everyone around me. I am exhausted both emotionally and physically. I want to run away, or at the very least hide under the covers and sleep until the world makes it was all better.

I’ve learned that these healing crisis generally occur when I am feeling fairly safe and secure. I’ll be nice and happy, I’ll feel that the world is a fantastic place, and I’m looking optimistically towards to the future. Then my soul says “Ok - she can handle it right now. Let the healing crisis begin.” Then bam, it hits me hard.

I sometimes wonder if I have a Dr. Jeckyl/Mr. Hide personality because it catches me so of guard. How can I be on top of the world one minute, and then so down just a little while later. It shouldn’t surprise me after all this time. It really shouldn’t.

I keep hoping that perhaps I’m each healing crisis is the last one.

These healing crisis’s come in waves. I experience times of healing followed by times of renewal. Sometimes the healing crisis will last for what seems like forever and go on for months. Other times it will last just a day or two. However, I have slowly learned some tricks that will get me back to the renewal period quicker.

I’ve found there are certain things that I can do that get me through the healing crisis faster and put me back into the sunlight. I’ll share them with you tomorrow. Right now I’ve got healing work to do.

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